Mason

Mason First Born 

Mason First Week of Casting 

Mason-

You are my son and not only my son a gift from GOD. You entered this world 02-18-2014. You had forever changed my life when I heard that very first cry come from you. When I heard the cry and actually held you the very first time I was actually thinking I was dreaming. You made me gain another name not only Erin or Sister or Daughter or even Auntie and that one day you will call me mom. The next day we found out that you was born with clubfoot and I didn't know what it was. Than you developed jaundice and had to under the UV lights. It broke my heart because you couldn't go home. Instead of leaving I decided to sleep in a room for boarding. I had slept in there for a day without while you was under the UV lights. Friday everything look great and I was like today is the day and then they were concerned about your little heart. So discharged got pushed back until Saturday and I was so ready to go see the outside of the hospital. You finally got to come home on Saturday. I was so excited that you got to come home. It finally hit me that I dont have just me to worry about now is you and myself. Your casting for your feet started that first Monday that you got out the hospital. Than you had went 5 weeks of the casting and every week changing of the casts. Than on Friday March 28, 2014 you had to have surgery to lengthen your heels in your feet.  

Mason I want you to I love you to the moon and back. 

You forever changed my life and for the better and with this being said no one will ever take you spot. 

Love Mom- Erin Turnmire 

Damon Jones

I look up to the sky and say thank you GOD for giving me the strength to see another day. I know I look up and thank GOD for putting someone like you in my life. I know there are times I can be mean but I surely don't mean to. I think the reason why I have been mean lately is because I don't know how to act   around someone like you.You have made me open my eyes and you showed me never settle for less. I feel lost for words sometime when we are around each other. I know that we can have great things once I find me a job. i just don't understand why I am so tired. I hope this being tired comes to a quick end. Every time I sit at the house alone in the morning when I am awake I tend to get very emotional because I am like why did he chose someone like me. Sometimes i feel like your to good for someone like me. As i ask myself why did you want me to be your girl. I can't believe that it been almost 2 months since the day I had left Minnesota. 

I just want to say is THANK YOU for discovering an Erin that was buried & plus an Erin I didn't think was in me. I love you and your truly my prefect man.  I had walls put up but some reason being here in North Carolina has broke them down. I tell my family and the few friends that I just needed to move away from everyone. 

I love you damon jones for many reasons 

Bowling 6-21-13 

06-12-13

June 12,2013 

      Today it marks 4 months since my Grandmother Turnmire went to be with Jesus. I know that she is looking down on everyone that was in her life. I can't put into words how I am feeling today. I know I wish I could pick up the phone and give her a ring and tell her the exciting changes that have been going on in my life. I know she is seeing them and smiling. A lot has changed for me. 

        Today I have been doing a lot of thinking and I can't say this enough that I feel I have made one of the greatest discussions in my life. Well not everyone knows I had went to take a journey to North Carolina last month to see how it would be down there. I can't even find the correct words to say right now. I had found an Erin that no one has seen probably since I was maybe 5 years old. I am more motivated to accomplish great things in my life. I had went down there and in the mean time I had formed great friendships with some great people. I had found me a boyfriend that will love and care me for me and not wanting me to change.  I have to say it was a struggle for Damon and I to dig an Erin that was buried. I never thought I would be able to have the Erin I had when I was a child. I look up to the sky and say to myself  Thank you GOD for giving me the strength to dig out ERIN!!  I know my Grandma Turnmire and my Aunt Joan is pleased with the change as they are looking down on me from heaven. 

      The reason for this is that I felt like I needed to right something up. I just hope that my family and friends are loving the new ERIN because, the old ERIN is down the drain. I am going to continue to have the NEW ERIN on full blast because the ERIN that was around for more than 16 years is officially gone. I set out to take the full journey on June 14,2013. I know I started living the journey in May.  I want to thank the family and friends that know that I am only doing this because I want to be able to start living a positive and happier life. 

Personal Thank You's to my family 

Dad & Bill-I want to thank you for everything you showed me throughout the years and I know that I have let you down at times but you never stop believing in me. Bill, you know we have had are fights, plus you are the best step dad in the world. I glad that we can have a relationship like no other. I want you to know this I love you!! Oh yeah thanks for being there for me no matter what. 

Mom- I want to thank you for everything that you taught me and also dealing with me when I wasn't the ERIN that I was has a child. 

Amy & Jeremy & Emma & Sid- Thanks for being there for me no matter what type of fights we have and plus I can't forget my amazing brother-in-law that has been there for me as well. Emma and Sid, you both hold a special spot in my heart and Little E I love you and I am going to miss you. Mr. Sid, I am sorry that I couldn't come and see you but I am sure I will see the photos of you growing and hopefully the holiday season I will be able to come and see you. I love you. 

Ryan, I want to thank you so much for being there for me. I can't believe our relationship has changed over the years of growing up. I know that you are my brother no matter how mad we are at each other. I just want you to that I love you for everything you have done and you will always be my MEDIC!!

Alan aka Idaho, Oh boy where to begin but I shouldn't say much but I know that you are currently overseas fighting for my freedom. I know that you are an amazing brother and I can't express how much I miss you and plus how much I am thankful that are relationship is beginning to get back where it was at one point. I love you! 

My last Thank you!!

Damon, I want to say thank you so much for everything. I am so lost for words on days like today. I just want to say this man has truly been an inspiration to me and help me dig out the ERIN that has not been seen since for over 16 years. I can't believe how much happiness is in my life and this current time and I guess he help me discover that North Carolina is my new home.  He has help me gain motivation an has help form a positive attitude out of me.  Damon, I love you and thank you for everything you have done and thanks for helping me find the ERIN that I never thought was still in ME. 

A quote I have came up with " Motivation forms Determination to accomplish your goals in your life" 

xoxoxo

Erin 

Job Corps 2 Eval

Hi everyone!

WELL LET ME JUST STARTED OFF MY SAYING I HAVING A GREAT TIME! I'M GATHERING MY STUFF TOGETHER AND BECOME A WELL ROUND POSTITIVE YOUNG LADY!

SO I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START MONDAY THIS WEEK FIRE ALARMS WENT OFF!
I HAD TO TAKE ME A PERSONAL! SO WEDENSDAY I HAD LOOK AT MY EVAL FOR COMMUNICATIONS AND I HAD GOT A 59/60!
TODAY:
I WAS DOING A POSTER FOR EUROPEAN FIELD DAY FOR A ACCOMENDATION AND THEN I LOOK AT MY EVAL FOR MATH AND I GOT A PURRRFECT EVAL 60/60 CANT COMPLAIN ONE MINUTE! IT SHOWS EVERYONE WHO SAID I WILL ONLY BE HERE FOR A MONTH A QUIT LOOK IM PROVING YOU ALL WRONG!

I GUESS MY WEEK JUST A GREAT WEEK ALL AROUND BECAUSE TOMORROW I GET PAID! PAY DAY!!!
OH YAH DID YOU KNOW! IM SUPER HAPPPYY!
THAT MY UPDATED AND I'LL TRY TO STAY ON MY UPDATES!!!


*Not me*

Job Corp :-)

Heyy, I finally been settle enough to write in my blogg... well I am currently going to Hubert H. Humphery Job Corps in St.Paul Minnesota...
I am glad that I can say it was the right direction for me to get my life back together. I always will say I am not perfect and I will have my struggles but I will look up to the great man for advice (GOD)
So my first week there started Tuesday morning at 9 a.m I was put into a group which is knew as "imput family" I have 4 brothers in there that are totally awesome Masi, Cameron, Robert, and the baby brother Dior. I have 3 sister, Velma, Brittany, Mikayla there all totally awesome. I was very welcome by my roommate name audrie... I love my friends at job corps.

My second week we was still together and work on classes and T.A.B.E testing was actually suprise that I got a 528 on my math and for my reading I got a 498... Im very smart like my step-father said.


My third week was imergians week I was in great it was the week I get to go on summer break for 3 weeks... yeah

Monday-Pinic at Roseville Centeral Park
Tuesday- Set in Health Occupation
Wedensday- Set in Medical Office Support
Thursday- Fincess and Businness 1 & 2 and got to go home...

I am so greatful for my wonderful friends and family to behind me in every step....

Shoutouts to my friend at HHHJC
Gurls
Chol'e-Sister
Rebecca Sr-Twin
Jennifer-Cousin
Brittany Scott-Cousin
Brittany C.-my imput sister
Stacy-My goon
Audrie-the roommate
Shante-booskie
Brittany C- New Orleans
Sieta- My goon

Guys
Mikey-my white boo
Demario-goon/???? what not
Bobby- my goon
Earvin- my folk
Cameron-my imput brother

Things before Job Corps

I quess there is somethinq that is buqqin me that i just have been carryinq around for awhile :]
~ I quess the first reason is im head off to chase my big time dream and that is job corp and no one is qoinq to stop me.
~ Alriqht my second reason is that I love someone and it hurts me that the person lives so far away. I hope everythinq works out!
~ I wish certain people know that I stay home for a reason because I could qo and qet drunk or hiqh but I choose my love or my family over the other opintions in the world.
~ I quess I hope that everything will work out for the best for me.
~ Well like I was told by a qreat man "I know you can do it. You are a very smart girl and have tons tons tons of potential. Love ya! Bill." also
if it wasnt the support of my father David Turnmire
Dear Erin,
Thank you for the very nice letters that you wrote to Bill and me on Facebook. We are both very proud of your decision to go to Job Corps. We will be excited to hear of your progress and growth during your time there.
You are right when you say that our relationship has grown over the last couple years. Thanks be to God. As far as me sending you something you need, I will always be there for you in emergencies. As you go on, you will become more self-sufficient and independent.
Maybe you and your Job Corps classmates will be able to attend one of the Twins games. That would be a fun outing.
Stay strong in the Lord and keep cheering on the Twins!
Love you more than you know,
Your Dad

Like i say today if it was for the most wonderful parents Karen Turnmire, David Turnmire, William Snyder I dont know where I would be. I got to also qive my major correct to my best friend who actually put me up for over two years.
Yes, you are correct Elizabeth, I need to go and learn the hardest thinq in life and that is being and adult.

I love you all

Audrey Wiener- Grandma
Elizabeth Buysse- Best Friend For Life
Rosae Lewis- My sister/ My Main
Robin Grisby- My other sister
Porshia Manley- My other mother
David Turnmire-Dad
William Snyder- Step-dad
Karen Tunrmire- Mom
Pamula Murphy- Auntie
Ousman Markio- Best Friend
Hisham- Buddy
Grandma Turnmire- Dad's Mom
Ryan Moore- My dad as inside joke

R.i.P Auntie Joan, Thanks for qivinq me the dream and I will finsh the dream for you and you will be in heaven and having the best seat when I finsh. :]

Love ya Erin

Life

Yes, okay I know that I havent been on here for awhile. Tonight just made me think I have a blogger site :-) I can say welcome back to myself! I guess I fell like I end up never doing the right! I just seem I can't do anything right! I am a mistake to the world! If, I never was born this world wouldnt have to deal with my bullshit! :( I have been missing my true friend and that myself :( I want myself back! I'll never find her because she is lost in the stress and fuck up world! Like i was told from somebody 95% of my problems is brought on from me. I guess it just not meant for me to be known about! So if you read this just read it and dont comment cuz I don't feel like i have nothing for this world. I guess I really truely wonder about things! I guess I better start putting up my wall again. And I didn't want to and that is why it is tearing me apart. :( I one time had enough love for myself but it seems that everytime I get depressed I get worse and worse depressed. I guess no one really know what is going on with me. I havent even opened up to my best friend because it just there is nothing there anymore. I fell I am losing all my friend right before my eyes. Well I know that the only friend I need is God!



And the scripture was fulfilled which saith, Abraham believed God, and it was imputed unto him for righteousness: and he was called the FRIEND OF GOD.(James 2:23)

Hope you all enjoyed my sad story :(